I’m not sure what I want to say in this post but I do know that I have something on my heart so I’ll just write and see where it takes me.
Last week over dinner with one of my dearest friends, I confessed to her that I feared I was watching life pass me by. I had my priorities mixed up and was putting temporary gratification ahead of the more important things of my life and I feared soon it would be too late to do anything about it.
My habit when I take on a task it is usually an all or nothing scenario and I tend to focus on those things that offer instant gratification rather than the longer term. You could liken it to having all my responsibilities and desires in a box and pulling out just one thing that I will focus on for the next few days. Everything else in the meantime including family, relationships, health and creativity is left in the box; forgotten until I return another day. Those are the things that are the most important and yet by ignoring them I was saying it was ok to put work before time with my husband. I told my friend that I had been thinking of my life when I am 80 and how do I want that to look. Firstly, there was the harsh reality of will I reach 80 years of age with my current lifestyle habits? but also what is the legacy that I am leaving behind. A pretty Instagram feed and a well managed bookkeeping or something a little more valuable.
Inspired by one particular lady, I felt I needed to put a timeframe on this feeling. Its too easy to say, I’ll do that tomorrow or it can wait until next week but I don’t want to live day to day anymore without direction. I want to live a purposeful life and not put off until tomorrow what I can do today. For example, I realised that I’ve been putting off painting our living space for 4 years. 4 YEARS!! Its not super important but an example of how something gets pushed to the bottom of the box and then here you are, 4 years later. I’ve promised to get out with the dogs every morning for the past 6 years. I’ve always wanted to spend a summer afternoon with a picnic and good friends and have never done it. I’ve wanted to be fitter and healthier for I can’t remember how long. All these things that are put in the box and forgotten but are most prevalent on my heart need to be put first.
So in an effort to make the remainder of 2015 count, I’ve decided to focus on the next 134 days or 19 weeks. That is how long there is until 2016 when I would no doubt do the same pattern of making more promises and then by the following August I would realise how much I failed. So I’ve come up with a bucket list of sorts for the remaining 134 days of 2015 that includes my health, creativity, faith, relationships and work. Some are short-term and easily achievable and some are big and long-term but all are important to me and I plan on bringing you along on the journey with me every week. If you’re interested to know some of my goals, you can see a new Pinterest board which is my visual inspiration and I’ll see you next week with the results of Week 1. Wish me luck!